I AM NOT GOING TO LET THIS GET TO ME ANY MORE.
That’s it, I’m done feeling like this. I’m done feeling sorry for myself and being fucking terrified of everything.
I didn’t tell anyone because I had no intentions of attending whatsoever, but I got on a fast training course to be a social worker. Do I want to be a social worker??? No, not particularly, but that’s beyond the point now. I need a job. I need money. SO I AM GOING TO DO IT AND MY PRIDE CAN SUCK IT BECAUSE I GOT THIS.
I am going to walk in there next Monday morning with no fear and everyone on the course will hate me because I’m such a fucking know-it-all Hermione Granger. I am going to get employed at the end of the two weeks and save up so I can finally fucking get married and finally have those children I’ve been on about for the last 5 years.
TODAY WAS THE DAY I DECIDED THAT I’M NOT GOING TO LET ANXIETY RULE MY LIFE ANY MORE. Take note.